昨天终于考完了！！！！
=)

开心到爆。
呵呵。。
其实也还好啦。
就那种宁静的开心。
=）

我们几个人昨天就考完，还有几个朋友月底才考完。。。

哇。
吃了午餐。
去 J8。
玩 arcade。
看 FAST & FURIOUS4。
好看。
本来不会去看的，。。。
但还是想轻松一下。
呵呵。。。
值得。

2 papers down.
2 more papers to go.

who ever LA is...
shut your mouth.
non-civilised person.

damn it.
grow up la.

somehow.
maybe.
soon,
there may be a turning point in my life.

i cant stand living in this house.

i wanna run away.

soon.

today's better's be's a's good's day's.
=/


gonna host XYB all by myself.
for the first time.
XYB goona be hosted by 1 person
for the first time too..
hmm...

please.
dont have anything bad happen.
=/



its hard to figure out what ya thinking.
cuz u always put me on a rollercoaster.
i'm starting to build walls around me.
sorry.
but please say the password before entering.

haha...
i also find the last session of drama lesson very engaging..
like everyone come together..
ya.. sort of..
=)

i think everyone put up a great performance.

one play down already.
NOW.
left 1 drama essay.
and 4 final exam papers.

oh my god.
2 essays down today.

left with one play tomolo.
and one essay.
yeah~~~

and so....
the Korean version of Boys Over Flowers ended liao...
=D
damn nice LAH...
i'll watch it again after exam..

NOW.
gotta rush my 2 essay by tonight...
ah..
tomolo got rehearsal.
=/

Alan Kuo leh~~~ =D

哦唛嘎！

我忘了说。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

昨天下午回公司录roving。。。
是好的咯。
后来等顺杰代完班， 然后才去庆祝马格列特的生日。

呵呵。。。
有幸。。。

=）

托Ken的福，
我和顺杰跟柯有綸拍照。
超兴奋的。。。
呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵。
合不拢嘴。
=）
这是第二次看到他。。。
呵呵。。。
不过，是第一次面对面耶。
可我不敢看他的脸。
呵呵呵。。。
但还是握了两次的手。

啊！！！！
开心死了。

happy birthday to a lot of people this month.
haha...
=)

yup.
20april.
20april.

before you know.
its 20april liao.
then it would be WOOHOO...
holiday.

i seriously need a break.
considering backpacking.
maybe i'll go alone. ha.
=)

something i always wanted to do.
but~~~ will mama allow ma??
hai.
i need money first.



and congrats to 二哥.
guess what.
he got a vacancy at Oxford University.
DAMN!!!!
haha...
hopefully he get the scholarship..
looking at the results he get, i really pinning high hopes.
=)
then he can do his Masters.
otherwise we have no cash to support him lo...
which he say he wont study if he dun get the funding la.


shunjie ask how i feel having a brother that has such achievements. cuz he told me his side of story and i really cant help laughing.... his mum is one of a kind, man.
i said. happy la.
really leh..
i'm like the average one at home lo.. caught in the middle between my brothers...
but ma treat us all the same... in different ways but the way that we need.
=D
i always wanted the things he have though.
like...
so smart.
go to good schools.
so good in english n chinese.
he can even speak in British accent lo... eew i dun understand a word.
very intellectual lah basically.
damn.
haiya....
life is fair de la...
[trying to convince myself... haha..]


he looked so happy/cheerful. watever =) when we skyped.
obviously, i think he wants it badly too....
please please...
i dun want him to be upset alone while he's overseas.
so...really... let him have the scholarship....
he's kinda scary when he's upset.
okay.
lucky he dun read my blog.
i think.

=D
if only i can have a quarter of his smarty genes in my Mal-functioning brain.

C.M.I.O

you know what.
today's seminar talk on CANNOT MAKE IT ONE.
was interesting to me.
to me.
cuz hahaha... a few were sleeping..
=D

I didnt know that the title was thought by Alfian ->> C.M.I.O
got it?
Chinese Malay Indian Others.
Cannot make all of these ethnic groups / races into ONE.
and.
theatre in Singapore - cannot make it one.
whatever interpretation up to you man...
haha...

ya...
its thought provoking for me..
like some insight into the English. Chinese. Malay theatre.

if there's National Theatre in Singapore. what language would be used?

@#$%^&*

I'M @#$%^&* !!!
FREAKINGOUT....
=/


ONE final REPORT on life course.
ONE film review ESSAY on DAS EXPERIMENT, i've watched this 2 times. damn sick, traumatizing movie. i almost vomit after watching it the 1st time which was exactly one year ago. i stole a plate of (6)curry puffs with Sathish, went to Holland V and eat, chit chat till midnight, make myself very tired and not to think out it, then go back to my dorm and sleep, in order to make myself feel better. haha. lucky, 2nd time was better.
ONE PLAY on Lao Jiu?

ARGH.


all next week.


shit.
shit.
shit.

@#$%^&*


i'M SO DEAD.
final exams coming.
this sem is chuiz to the core.

one essay down liao.. yeah

finally one essay down...
left with one final report, one play, one essay.
before my final exams.
=/

lesson end at 1230pm
straight after 317 tutorial
i went library return my book
then we all went off to SRC.
=)

with Cheng Zhi, Daniel, Dylan, Eric, Isadora.
6 of us...
haha..
my first time playing table tennis...
i think the rest of them got secretly train at home de LOL...
eeyer...
all so pro de...
let's compete in canoeing the next time..
but i think i wanna play badminton and tennis too..
dear clique, lets all play leh...
jio Teddy and Fred.. haha.. then got rackets provided...
=)

the usual Karaoke hang-outers..
Cheng Zhi, Dylan, Isa, Me.
lol.
sang emo songs...
till cry.
a long moment where 3 of us except Isa went emo and cry.
ha..
唱着，唱着。。。
点了首《五月天 - 超人》
then...
T_T
i just felt like letting it out..
A bit ONLY.
a few drops la..
ok no more than 20 drops.
so awkward to cry in front of others.
anyway.
hha.. then after that sing happy songs again..
LOL..
=)













i wanted so badly to hold on to something.



i just.


just one last cry.

‘笑‘娘惹 - the 'Siao' Nyonya

its weird that i had been dreaming of him recently.
i swear i dun have time to think of him.
so i dun understand how come i have those dreams.
they seemed so real that everytime i wake up,
i feel a sense of lost, disappointment,
like reality slapped into your face.
thats bad.




i'm definitely distance-ing myself away from him.
though i dun think he'll realise it.
but i guess it doesnt matter anymore,
since i dun think it ever matters to him.
i think i'll feel better, am feeling better.
就別再為他流淚　別再讓他操控你的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔　也不要太狼狽
他不值得你的淚　把那遺憾丟在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追　以後為自己醉
(to van.)




i have to face my reality now.
tourism essay.

thisknee-disney-thisknee-disney??

i'm so hooked up in America's Next Top Model...
been youtube-ing...
i think cycle 11 is the Best!!
the girls are so pretty...
i like the opening the best...
so cool...
like PRETTY~~
hahaha...


yoho...
=)
yesterday's seminar presentation on Emily on the Emerald Hill was i guess quite good... except for the ending part where the class is all sian sian and starting part where the points are kinda irrelevant...
haiz...
i always wanted to say i find him weird...
but really...
hai...
i guess i think we did our best...
ah..
i think they enjoyed eating the kueh too...
=D

my first time wearing Kebaya...
yah...
i was presenting on Peranakan Culture...
=)
cool stuff...
waiting for Zhane to upload our crazy pictures...
=P

then went NUS with my tutor to borrow books for my tourism essay..
ya..
sian..
cuz gotta hand in next wednesday...
give me many miracles...
i have 3 books and notes to read...
gosh...
i'm writing on disney.
interesting but...
keeping my fingers crossed.

i was just walking behind Wendy, Patricia, YiWen....
when i was approaching their big and pretty library...
hahah...
Wendy went like "CHUNYAN!!"
haha...
=D
then she lent me her card to go in...
haha...
so cute...
;)

on a DISNEY ride...
haiz...
i'm on a Disneyfication or rather Disneyization mode till Wednesday 1130am.
then after... let's go KBOX people!!!
can we not play table tennis...?

need to chill before i chiong for the remaining work...
=/
essays, play, exams.

Cannot Make It One

NTU Explorations in the Arts Series


















Cannot Make It One:

A Dialogue on CMIO

Racial Politics and Singapore Theatre



with Chong Tze Chien, Alfian Saat and Kok Heng Leun



Date: Friday, 27th Mar 2009
Time: 1.00 – 2.30 pm
Venue: The Nanyang Playhouse, NIE

The politics of difference is an area of interest for all global citizens, particularly those who live and engage with urban environments. Being one of the busiest crossroads between East and West, South and North, Singapore provides a fascinating point of intersection between several cultures and multiple identities. Many streams run into the same river, but do they ever become one?

Theatre provides a site for exploring this phenomenon and performing the conflicts and challenges that emerge in plural societies. Whilst theatre continues to have several language based streams such as English Language, Chinese Language and Malay Language theatre, they are all part of the Singapore theatre scene. Multilingual productions are still rare, albeit not as uncommon as they once were. So will the streams ever converge and do they need to?

Theatre practitioners Alfian Saat, Chong Tze Chien and Kok Heng Leun talk about their experience and vision for Singapore theatre. As writers and directors whose involvement in theatre has criss-crossed between one company and another, one stream and another, they consider the bridges and the riverbanks of making theatre and thinking theatre in Singapore. For now and for the future. Will they deal with rising sea-levels as well?


ALL ARE WELCOME!!!

炒饭 ^^

哦。 MY 天 啊！~

=D

我第一次煮炒饭耶！！~

自己吃了一大盘。

爸妈也吃了。。。

呵呵。。。

满足满足满足。。。

为了不让那群大男人主义的家伙们在台湾时客死异乡，

还是多需要练习啊~

还是有很多佳肴我要跟妈妈学。。。

呵呵。。。





这几个月胖了。
明天要减肥了。 T_T

sobz

18 March - HS317 Tutorial Presentation
20 March - CDP202 Seminar Presentation
25 March - HS317 Essay
02 April - HS209 Final Report
03 April - CDP202 Play Production
13 April - CDP202 Essay
15 April - HS209 Final Exam
16 April - HS302 Final Exam
17 April - HS217 Final Exam
20 April - HS317 Final Exam

shit.
T_T

思考是好的，思考太多就。。。。

ok.
我最近才发现我常用‘思考’这个字。
呵呵。。。
因为每每我说一次，朋友就会说:“这是你第N次用‘思考’了。”

‘思考’还蛮好用的啊。
可他就会反问我，为什么不用‘想’？

我还真没‘想’过呢。。。






有没有发现？
电视节目很喜欢把男女之间的关系，搬出来讨论。

虽然不同的观点值得拿来探讨，‘思考’。
可是永远也不会有答案的。
答案自己找。
若找不到，那你永远都不会找到。

可是我开始听到很烦了耶。。。
真是的。
说什么，“每个男人都是这样的啊！”之类的话。
有必要吗？

真的没有好男人了吗？

不过，好像还倒是真的耶。
呵呵。。。
可悲。


还是过好自己一个人的生活。
比较好。
何必再去理会另一个人呢？
伤身，伤神。





我在式着，说服我自己。

不是现在

时间仿佛在慢慢的摧毁我，和身边的人。

可不可以停下来？

不是现在，
如果迟早要经历的话，拜托不是现在。

我还没有能力应付这么大的重担。
没有心理准备。
没有办法承受。

让我装无知，度过这几年。
等我可以了，我会扛起它的。
我会的。

迟早的事，
迟一点在来好吗？

现在不是时候。

我没有准备好。

如果现在就来，没剩多少力量的我，会活不过。

T_T

shit.
my face is on omy's video.
die.

why they put inside.??????
为何？

even if only feature 2secs..
i also dun wan AH.....

why they never edit...??
sobz...

为何？？ T_T