原来你也和我一样。
>_<

是好是坏，不重要。
也许太迟了，该早点的，也不重要。
至少，我终于知道。
原来我们是一样的。

exams coming.
in fact i have one tomolo.
hahs. no moods to study. :(
oh wells.

cant wait for the editing to finish...
wonders how the film will end up looking like? :)

you certainly wont be reading this.
but... still gonna post it anyway :)
i was touched by your message.
saying that because you cared.
i cried real hard.
probably because you hit the soft spot.
well, in a kinda harsh way.
but i wasnt angry at you.
funny, that you were scared that i was.
hah.
i guess i was so much like you in the past.
thats why we could connect so well, sort of.
i dont know why but i kinda 'wish you were here' in every place i go.
but when we talk face to face, we both somehow cant seem to be able to climb over that wall.


i wonder
will we still be the same after we part?
will we still be able to talk like what we are doing now?
will you send me a postcard telling me how you're doing there?
will you be missing those times like i do right now?
did you ever mean it when you say those things?


i hope
we can be like this for a long time.
even if we wont be in the same place anymore.
even if we are both busy with our lives.
we can still be like this. like how we are right now.
you are someone i wish i can keep.
just like those few important people i can name in my life.
hope this list adds on.
with least this one more name.

soon. i'll be back.
stucked in a dilemma.
not wanting to face the reality.
its been a pleasant 4months stay in taiwan.
filled with more memories than i have in my 20years of life in singapore.


things that i may never do again.
things that i wish i can re-do it again.
times that i know it will soon past me by and become memories.
times that i wish it could stop at the moment forever.
places i think i wont ever come back again.
places i wish i can go back again.
people i may never meet again.
people i wish i can have a chance to meet again.

taken from http://kentteo.blogspot.com/

有点期待，又有点担心。
不知道，会不会。。。
也许，你也和我一样。
既然知道。。。
到那时。。。
不知道是用什么样的心情。

没有想到先离开的会是你。
我想到时侯，
我会舍不得。

所以才下定决心陪你去。

起码，想念的时候，
脑海里会有
只属于我们的回忆。

因为想回来，所以要离开。

会吗？
有可能是最后一次了。
以后。。。
也许没有以后了。

所以才想冒这个险。

你会知道吗？

其实，
不管我们选择去哪里，
你都是我这段旅行的意义。

http://www.zaobao.com/yl/yl100422_002.shtml

its really sad to see how Singapore education system has changed so far...
its really sad to see the different ethnic groups slowly losing a very strong feature of their own ethnic identities...
its really sad to see how rational the education system train us to be, to be so calculative of our success and failure, to escape from obstacles....
its really sad to see how this beautiful language will slowly fade our in our society, without us knowing, it will eventually end up like our lost dialects...
its really sad...

its been 2 months and 3days since i came taiwan.
time flies...
before you know... it'll be gone.
i think im gonna miss this place when i leave.

i embrace the freedom, the sense of living, the independence.....
i know im selfish.
but i wanna run away.
far away.





i think i'll miss those HTHT sessions, those crazy random things we do, those ups and downs we've been through.

i think i'll miss talking to you on msn almost every night without fail.

i think i'll cry thinking i'll miss these times.






i think maybe cause i may not live long, so i'm given these happy times now.
i'm thankful for them.

“用青春的眼去看，旅行是自由浪漫的灵感泉源； 以缅怀的心去看，旅行是生命意义的重新诠释。”

当我用我那青春的眼，缅怀的心去看时，才发现我的旅行就是你。

听着 袁咏琳《很旅行的爱情》

歌词这么写的。。。

愛是一場越過天際 落向永恒的旅行
原來一切只是美麗 當我終於明白我愛你
薰衣草田的夏季 每段小徑都很甜蜜
北方撿拾楓葉的那片森林 連松果落地時都在開心

天氣很晴你是一行 蔚藍色的詩句
湖泊很靜而我學著 朗讀無處不在的愛情

比利時的黑巧克力餘韻不如你
葡萄莊園裡的香檳清澈不及你
古典鋼琴彈不出 你微笑時的聲音
愛你才是我最重要的旅行

山腰蜿蜒的小徑餘韻不如你
琉璃瓦上的雨滴清澈不及你
你是這個世界 旅行中最美的 風景

thoughts about taiwan

it's been a month.
my stay at hsinchu is quite pleasant. :)
i'm glad that the girls who are in this exchange program are nice... :D
haha...
5 girls under one roof...
ha... buying supper last night at the night market outside our house was fun.... :)
hsinchu is a quiet place... not much entertainment. furthermore, our house got no TV.
you bet....
ha...
even have to take a public bus, and then a shuttle bus just to go to this mall to watch a 230NT movie (which costs more than a weekend ticket in Spore). so guys in Spore please dont complain if you have to pay for 2 movie tickets (you and your gf), because the guys here can pay for 3-4ppl in Spore just to watch one movie lo....

the 7-eleven here are amazingly nice to shop. YES shop.
haha. i'm a grocery shopping person. always like to hang out at NTUC, Cold Storage etc.
now i always hang out at 7-eleven and see see look look. end up buying a lot of things... LOL...

the food here... wells... some are really nice... and some are awfully oily, eekk.
but they are generally very oily.... VERY VERY OILY... they use oil like pour water lo..

sorry but i only saw less than 5 guys who are cute in Taiwan.... countable amount.
ha....
lol... the girls erm... have very nice legs in general.... only some are pretty, but pretty yet omy tian~ can borrow their fake eyelashes to sweep my floor already....
sorry... not my kind... er.

let me see....
hmmm....
update soon :)

this semester was finally, officially over on the 3rd dec at 1130am.
trust me,
its been the most stressful sem i ever had...
assignments. deadlines. assignments. deadlines. assignments. deadlines.
heavey core modules..

and this sem was the last time i'll ever take a drama module... i'm officially minored in drama.. T_T sobz....

the very finally performance was.... hmmm... oh well...
not much of a mix feelings that i tot im supposed to have....
rather...
it was.... silent.
ha...
oh wells... i'm really happy that i met the people there... :))
gonna watch some plays this dec...
BROKE... T_T

and yup yup... went malaysia last weekend for my cousin wedding...
haha.. first time i sort of attended the whole wedding ceremony... the tea ceremony, ang-bao giving, making the newly-wed's bed, wedding dinner, .... :))
i miss my cute cute damn cute niece....
she's 4 years already...
so round... put on weight since the last time i saw her... last jan...
but still as cute...
she;s the prettiest cutest girl i ever saw... haha.. beautiful eyes...
of course la...
my cousin is pretty...plus
i swear her daddy is damn handsome... damn handsome til you dont dare to look at him directly in the eye kind of handsome... haha...
:))
i want a baby tooooo!!!!!
awww....

left with less than 2 months time...
hmmm...
thinking of wat i wanna do before i go...

yesterday went to airport to fetch my bro.. back from london
disaster...
erh...
its only me... and him...
dots...
dont ask me where pa and ma...
argh...

anyway...
will stop working at Double O on 2nd Jan 2010. :)
haha..
they will move away anyway..
haven found a place yet...
2nd Jan will be da last day Double O n O Bar is located at Robertson Walk...

ARGH...
exams coming...
still got Research Proposal to do...
FYP in 1 MORE SEM'S TIME....
T_T

either a Man or a Woman

damn. compulsory heterosexuality.
who told you guy muz like girl. girl muz like guy...
argh..
i could feel how confined we are living in a hetero-normative society..
when i was trying to buy baby clothes yesterday...
its jumpers are either pink or blue.
wat the....
i didnt want to ask about the baby's gender...
but i was forced to...
if not how i buy...
argh...
we're assigned to be in certain gender categories from da day we're born....
and expected to grow up fulfilling the characteristics of that gender....
lie being masculine or feminine...
i felt bit guilty at the thought of buying girly clothes for the yet-to-be-born baby girl.
but the baby clothes are damn cute....i was enjoying myself buying them...
haha...


pardon me..
cuz just finished a 2000 words essay on Judith Butler's gender performativity...
few days ago...
way to go, Butler...

and oh.. i'm very into Kumar these days...
he's so pretty when he's in drag....
lol...

99balloons

beautiful child.
beautiful parents.
beautiful love.


www.ninetynineballoons.com

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=th6Njr-qkq0&feature=PlayList&p=24037F09F724000A&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=8


i cried real hard.....

i'm living the best of my double life world...
ok..
women live a double life world...
and i totally agree with the theory.
haha...
we go for girls for emotional support.
we go for guys for physical needs. (my prof calls it the 'erotic' side)
so ya...

i'm thinking if you're a lesbian, your girlfriend's a 'butch' (guy character in a girl body), doesnt it fulfil both at the same time huh....
way cool...

i poked my eye with a pair of scissors.
on wed morning.
accidentally de la...
duh...
jul say, what a way to commit suicide.
exactly.
hai yayayay....
:))

like i say, my IQ is dropping like bird droppings. haha.
stupid la huh, i also know.

speedy recovery..
doc gave me dunno 3 kinds of pills and 2 types of eye drops.
lucky neh affect eyesight, but got cut a bit on the cornea.
haiz.
thurs morning was damn bad till i cannot open my eyes to see AT ALL.
whenever i tried to open, my eyes just auto close or keep tearing.
i didnt go work on thurs cuz my left eye really hurt.
but finally can go work on fri.
weeeee.
tonight also.
weeeee.
:))

happy birthdaY singapore.

but when do you think of singapore, really?
in your daily life?
maybe.

when you look at people coming from other countries,
you'll go "why so many ________ invading our country"
when you go overseas, hear someone at the nearby table saying "wa lau eh, machiam like wat sia",
you'll go "oh my god, you're a singaporean? i'm a singaporean too. ka ki nang."
when you travel to poorer countries or travel away from home for too long,
you start to think singapore is actually quite a good place huh, because we got many nice food such as hainanese chicken rice which was never originated from singapore.

so...
national day is just another day to remind you,
oei, you are a singaporean hor.

wat is a singaporean?

:))
getting a hang of it.
it was slam last night.
total slam.
wasnt only a bar-back.
weeee....
did quite a lot of order...
even finished my order chit.
:))
so happy...
one step closer.
:))
anyways.
ha... this is the third week.
got on well with the ppl on the floor, & other bartenders.
thats the most important thing to me.
:))
gonna stay here for long.
esp since jul's together in this.
haha.
schools starting next week.
but i'm so looking forward to school and work.
lol.
damn,
i love my job.

it will be a challenge but i'm up for it.
i know i can do it.
=)

i like my new work place.
muahahahaha...
=)

人与人之间。
微妙的联系。

呵呵。

原来，
不能自己一个人的。
总是，
会有需要依赖别人的时候。
还是，
会希望被重视。

不喜欢一个人吃饭，
看在别人眼里，
也怪怪的。

所以，
假假的，
也要装熟，
装作我很有人气，
有人缘，
根你一起吃饭。

我不是透明的，好不好。
问一下，会死啊？
应该这么说。

帮朋友宣泄他心中不满。
就多一个星期嘛，
自由咯。