.i'm just a G.I.R.L dance-ing around.

2010-06-27T23:25:00.002+08:00

原来你也和我一样。
>_<

是好是坏，不重要。
也许太迟了，该早点的，也不重要。
至少，我终于知道。
原来我们是一样的。

2010-06-13T21:13:00.002+08:00

exams coming.
in fact i have one tomolo.
hahs. no moods to study. :(
oh wells.

cant wait for the editing to finish...
wonders how the film will end up looking like? :)

you certainly wont be reading this.
but... still gonna post it anyway :)
i was touched by your message.
saying that because you cared.
i cried real hard.
probably because you hit the soft spot.
well, in a kinda harsh way.
but i wasnt angry at you.
funny, that you were scared that i was.
hah.
i guess i was so much like you in the past.
thats why we could connect so well, sort of.
i dont know why but i kinda 'wish you were here' in every place i go.
but when we talk face to face, we both somehow cant seem to be able to climb over that wall.

i wonder
will we still be the same after we part?
will we still be able to talk like what we are doing now?
will you send me a postcard telling me how you're doing there?
will you be missing those times like i do right now?
did you ever mean it when you say those things?

i hope
we can be like this for a long time.
even if we wont be in the same place anymore.
even if we are both busy with our lives.
we can still be like this. like how we are right now.
you are someone i wish i can keep.
just like those few important people i can name in my life.
hope this list adds on.
with least this one more name.

2010-06-13T20:46:00.004+08:00

soon. i'll be back.
stucked in a dilemma.
not wanting to face the reality.
its been a pleasant 4months stay in taiwan.
filled with more memories than i have in my 20years of life in singapore.

things that i may never do again.
things that i wish i can re-do it again.
times that i know it will soon past me by and become memories.
times that i wish it could stop at the moment forever.
places i think i wont ever come back again.
places i wish i can go back again.
people i may never meet again.
people i wish i can have a chance to meet again.

2010-06-13T20:42:00.004+08:00

taken from http://kentteo.blogspot.com/

2010-05-31T22:17:00.004+08:00

有点期待，又有点担心。
不知道，会不会。。。
也许，你也和我一样。
既然知道。。。
到那时。。。
不知道是用什么样的心情。

没有想到先离开的会是你。
我想到时侯，
我会舍不得。

所以才下定决心陪你去。

起码，想念的时候，
脑海里会有
只属于我们的回忆。

因为想回来，所以要离开。

会吗？
有可能是最后一次了。
以后。。。
也许没有以后了。

所以才想冒这个险。

你会知道吗？

其实，
不管我们选择去哪里，
你都是我这段旅行的意义。

2010-04-25T12:59:00.002+08:00

http://www.zaobao.com/yl/yl100422_002.shtml

its really sad to see how Singapore education system has changed so far...
its really sad to see the different ethnic groups slowly losing a very strong feature of their own ethnic identities...
its really sad to see how rational the education system train us to be, to be so calculative of our success and failure, to escape from obstacles....
its really sad to see how this beautiful language will slowly fade our in our society, without us knowing, it will eventually end up like our lost dialects...
its really sad...

2010-04-19T01:05:00.004+08:00

its been 2 months and 3days since i came taiwan.
time flies...
before you know... it'll be gone.
i think im gonna miss this place when i leave.

i embrace the freedom, the sense of living, the independence.....
i know im selfish.
but i wanna run away.
far away.

i think i'll miss those HTHT sessions, those crazy random things we do, those ups and downs we've been through.

i think i'll miss talking to you on msn almost every night without fail.

i think i'll cry thinking i'll miss these times.

i think maybe cause i may not live long, so i'm given these happy times now.
i'm thankful for them.

2010-04-06T21:24:00.002+08:00

“用青春的眼去看，旅行是自由浪漫的灵感泉源；以缅怀的心去看，旅行是生命意义的重新诠释。”

当我用我那青春的眼，缅怀的心去看时，才发现我的旅行就是你。

听着袁咏琳《很旅行的爱情》

歌词这么写的。。。

愛是一場越過天際落向永恒的旅行
原來一切只是美麗當我終於明白我愛你
薰衣草田的夏季每段小徑都很甜蜜
北方撿拾楓葉的那片森林連松果落地時都在開心

天氣很晴你是一行蔚藍色的詩句
湖泊很靜而我學著朗讀無處不在的愛情

比利時的黑巧克力餘韻不如你
葡萄莊園裡的香檳清澈不及你
古典鋼琴彈不出你微笑時的聲音
愛你才是我最重要的旅行

山腰蜿蜒的小徑餘韻不如你
琉璃瓦上的雨滴清澈不及你
你是這個世界旅行中最美的風景

thoughts about taiwan

2010-03-20T11:52:00.004+08:00

it's been a month.
my stay at hsinchu is quite pleasant. :)
i'm glad that the girls who are in this exchange program are nice... :D
haha...
5 girls under one roof...
ha... buying supper last night at the night market outside our house was fun.... :)
hsinchu is a quiet place... not much entertainment. furthermore, our house got no TV.
you bet....
ha...
even have to take a public bus, and then a shuttle bus just to go to this mall to watch a 230NT movie (which costs more than a weekend ticket in Spore). so guys in Spore please dont complain if you have to pay for 2 movie tickets (you and your gf), because the guys here can pay for 3-4ppl in Spore just to watch one movie lo....

the 7-eleven here are amazingly nice to shop. YES shop.
haha. i'm a grocery shopping person. always like to hang out at NTUC, Cold Storage etc.
now i always hang out at 7-eleven and see see look look. end up buying a lot of things... LOL...

the food here... wells... some are really nice... and some are awfully oily, eekk.
but they are generally very oily.... VERY VERY OILY... they use oil like pour water lo..

sorry but i only saw less than 5 guys who are cute in Taiwan.... countable amount.
ha....
lol... the girls erm... have very nice legs in general.... only some are pretty, but pretty yet omy tian~ can borrow their fake eyelashes to sweep my floor already....
sorry... not my kind... er.

let me see....
hmmm....
update soon :)

2009-12-12T12:00:00.002+08:00

this semester was finally, officially over on the 3rd dec at 1130am.
trust me,
its been the most stressful sem i ever had...
assignments. deadlines. assignments. deadlines. assignments. deadlines.
heavey core modules..

and this sem was the last time i'll ever take a drama module... i'm officially minored in drama.. T_T sobz....

the very finally performance was.... hmmm... oh well...
not much of a mix feelings that i tot im supposed to have....
rather...
it was.... silent.
ha...
oh wells... i'm really happy that i met the people there... :))
gonna watch some plays this dec...
BROKE... T_T

and yup yup... went malaysia last weekend for my cousin wedding...
haha.. first time i sort of attended the whole wedding ceremony... the tea ceremony, ang-bao giving, making the newly-wed's bed, wedding dinner, .... :))
i miss my cute cute damn cute niece....
she's 4 years already...
so round... put on weight since the last time i saw her... last jan...
but still as cute...
she;s the prettiest cutest girl i ever saw... haha.. beautiful eyes...
of course la...
my cousin is pretty...plus
i swear her daddy is damn handsome... damn handsome til you dont dare to look at him directly in the eye kind of handsome... haha...
:))
i want a baby tooooo!!!!!
awww....

left with less than 2 months time...
hmmm...
thinking of wat i wanna do before i go...

2009-11-10T10:00:00.002+08:00

yesterday went to airport to fetch my bro.. back from london
disaster...
erh...
its only me... and him...
dots...
dont ask me where pa and ma...
argh...

anyway...
will stop working at Double O on 2nd Jan 2010. :)
haha..
they will move away anyway..
haven found a place yet...
2nd Jan will be da last day Double O n O Bar is located at Robertson Walk...

ARGH...
exams coming...
still got Research Proposal to do...
FYP in 1 MORE SEM'S TIME....
T_T

either a Man or a Woman

2009-10-23T16:13:00.007+08:00

damn. compulsory heterosexuality.
who told you guy muz like girl. girl muz like guy...
argh..
i could feel how confined we are living in a hetero-normative society..
when i was trying to buy baby clothes yesterday...
its jumpers are either pink or blue.
wat the....
i didnt want to ask about the baby's gender...
but i was forced to...
if not how i buy...
argh...
we're assigned to be in certain gender categories from da day we're born....
and expected to grow up fulfilling the characteristics of that gender....
lie being masculine or feminine...
i felt bit guilty at the thought of buying girly clothes for the yet-to-be-born baby girl.
but the baby clothes are damn cute....i was enjoying myself buying them...
haha...

pardon me..
cuz just finished a 2000 words essay on Judith Butler's gender performativity...
few days ago...
way to go, Butler...

and oh.. i'm very into Kumar these days...
he's so pretty when he's in drag....
lol...

99balloons

2009-10-12T23:01:00.003+08:00

beautiful child.
beautiful parents.
beautiful love.

www.ninetynineballoons.com

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=th6Njr-qkq0&feature=PlayList&p=24037F09F724000A&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=8

i cried real hard.....

2009-09-11T18:25:00.001+08:00

i'm living the best of my double life world...
ok..
women live a double life world...
and i totally agree with the theory.
haha...
we go for girls for emotional support.
we go for guys for physical needs. (my prof calls it the 'erotic' side)
so ya...

i'm thinking if you're a lesbian, your girlfriend's a 'butch' (guy character in a girl body), doesnt it fulfil both at the same time huh....
way cool...

2009-08-15T11:10:00.002+08:00

i poked my eye with a pair of scissors.
on wed morning.
accidentally de la...
duh...
jul say, what a way to commit suicide.
exactly.
hai yayayay....
:))

like i say, my IQ is dropping like bird droppings. haha.
stupid la huh, i also know.

speedy recovery..
doc gave me dunno 3 kinds of pills and 2 types of eye drops.
lucky neh affect eyesight, but got cut a bit on the cornea.
haiz.
thurs morning was damn bad till i cannot open my eyes to see AT ALL.
whenever i tried to open, my eyes just auto close or keep tearing.
i didnt go work on thurs cuz my left eye really hurt.
but finally can go work on fri.
weeeee.
tonight also.
weeeee.
:))

2009-08-09T14:29:00.004+08:00

happy birthdaY singapore.

but when do you think of singapore, really?
in your daily life?
maybe.

when you look at people coming from other countries,
you'll go "why so many ________ invading our country"
when you go overseas, hear someone at the nearby table saying "wa lau eh, machiam like wat sia",
you'll go "oh my god, you're a singaporean? i'm a singaporean too. ka ki nang."
when you travel to poorer countries or travel away from home for too long,
you start to think singapore is actually quite a good place huh, because we got many nice food such as hainanese chicken rice which was never originated from singapore.

so...
national day is just another day to remind you,
oei, you are a singaporean hor.

wat is a singaporean?

2009-08-06T18:33:00.004+08:00

:))
getting a hang of it.
it was slam last night.
total slam.
wasnt only a bar-back.
weeee....
did quite a lot of order...
even finished my order chit.
:))
so happy...
one step closer.
:))
anyways.
ha... this is the third week.
got on well with the ppl on the floor, & other bartenders.
thats the most important thing to me.
:))
gonna stay here for long.
esp since jul's together in this.
haha.
schools starting next week.
but i'm so looking forward to school and work.
lol.
damn,
i love my job.

2009-07-24T18:23:00.001+08:00

it will be a challenge but i'm up for it.
i know i can do it.
=)

2009-07-23T05:06:00.000+08:00

i like my new work place.
muahahahaha...
=)

2009-07-05T21:25:00.002+08:00

人与人之间。
微妙的联系。

呵呵。

原来，
不能自己一个人的。
总是，
会有需要依赖别人的时候。
还是，
会希望被重视。

不喜欢一个人吃饭，
看在别人眼里，
也怪怪的。

所以，
假假的，
也要装熟，
装作我很有人气，
有人缘，
根你一起吃饭。

我不是透明的，好不好。
问一下，会死啊？
应该这么说。

帮朋友宣泄他心中不满。
就多一个星期嘛，
自由咯。

2009-07-04T11:10:00.002+08:00

went double o to people watch last night.
lol.

not exactly la.
but cuz jul really want to let loose.
then shikin also go la...
after the many attempts, and 1 hour of persuasion....
i gave in anyway....

took bus 36A to city... then took a cab...

ya...

my first time...
shy***

felt so out of place can...
my second time feeling out of place...
first time was when i went to ZoukOut last dec.

anyways....
i enjoyed myself...
girls time...
didnt get drunk la...duh~~~
i swear i was people watching through...
and many qns that went on in my brain....
like what kind of people come here...
why they come here?
etc etc...

but most importantly...
wish us luck k....
fingers crossed....
hahahahahaha............
please please please.... for today...
*

anyway..
i felt so cheated. about the AP not coming down and helped me the other day..
and confronted them...
so apparently..
they should have even shifted their fat ar*e to my bar, when i felt scared.
wat the f***

i wished i can lodge a complain.

2009-07-03T07:29:00.004+08:00

i've never felt so humiliated in my life,
i'll never ever call the A...P... again....
unless its cuz i wanna complain about the incident...

other than f***
i dunno what can i say.

wat?
they are paid by citizen's income tax lo.
freaks.
they cant even move their freaking ass over to help a fellow citizen izzit?
wat the freak.

b*st8rds.

i was freaking alone in the bar from 3pm-8pm.
its okay. cuz there's lack of staff.
i was freaking alone handling the drunken case.
its okay. "cuz there's lack of staff, & my manager could just tell me to go info counter, when i later found out that he was busy smoking with another manager."
i was freaking alone running out of the bar, to the info counter, reluctantly abandon my bar.
its okay. "cuz the freaking AP refuse to come and help, cuz he didnt break any law."
i was freaking alone running back to the bar, harassed by him, and found out that he went inside the bar counter and already grap a double rock glass putting some ice, .... but stopped in time by other kind customers.
its okay. "cuz the freaking manager and AP refuse to come."
i was freaking calling the AP while standing inside my bar, when i finally got hold of their number.
that was when everything was f*** up.
he questioned me...tons of stupid questions lo...repetitively..
did you SEE him holding the liquer?
i wanted to tell him:
"which f***ing ear you didnt hear properly, i was at the info counter when he came into the bar counter, how do i f***ing see him do anything? but i f***ing have eye-witness can. you wanna talk to my customer a not? you dun want to help, fine! Ar*eh0le"

i just hanged up the phone.

i couldnt take it anymore, but just cried quietly.
and quickly put on a smile to serve the customers.

law by law izzit?
you must be singaporean lo.
freaking bureaucracy.
stootpid system.
freaking management.
stootpid people.

my only place to release the disappointment, & unhappiness was finding Shikin & Jul, where they were stationed at other terminal.
it hurts to see jul feeling so angry.
i wasnt planning to let any management know bout what exactly happened, other than my girls.
but Jul want all the managers to know. if they dun do anything, they're gonna get it from her.

anyway.
i just dun want anything like that to ever happen again, man.
i now despise A...P... a LOT. @_@

i heart TRANSFORMERS...... =D

2009-06-30T19:55:00.001+08:00

2009-06-26T01:23:00.002+08:00

weeee~~~~
did i mentioned i had stayed overnight at the airport...
hahah...

me, jul, hana, shikin.
eh...
when ah?
last sunday...
yeah...
then we talked from after work like 11pm till morning 6am...
didnt want to take cab cuz BELLY EXPENSIVE....

had popeyes, mac...
ya...
had girls talk about boys, work, nationality (we're the only 4 singaporean girls working there... LOL...), etc etc
its so damn cool lo...
i'm loving the 4 of us...
hahaha.

then today a customer treat me and jul to drinks...
i had a jagarboom & tequila shot...
jul had a jagarboom & 3 tequila shots...
lOl...
haha...

cheers.
to everyone.
=)
its the happiest period of time working here since last year.

家

2009-06-20T23:11:00.003+08:00

缘分。
不容易。
可能需要等。
可能等不到。

可以让你有回家的感觉的人。
跟缘分一样吧。
一样难找。
但除了家人以外，
原来还是有的。

所以有点想哭。
因为心里有种感动。

因为回家的感觉，
就是能够面对最真实的自己。
烦恼，痛苦，伤心，难过。。。。
想哭就哭。
感动，开心，快乐，高兴。。。
想笑就笑。

=）

期待有个人在你到家时，微笑着跟你说，"Okaeri。" (おかえり)

我会怀着感激的心情，拥抱我爱的人说,"Tadaima。" (ただいま)

2009-06-13T12:51:00.002+08:00

ok.
i didnt have a good sleep.
duh.

stupid.
haha...

okay.
once in awhile do crazy things is good de...
not exactly crazy la...

anyways.
drank a LOT of alcohol after work yesterday.
and drink VERY FAST lo.
double rock glass jack daniels & coke.
half rock glass baileys.
one shot jagerbomb.
one shot harbour lights. (the stupid bacardi 151 - 75.5% alcohol >> flamingly hot)
a few sip of (not nice) long island ice tea.

then me n jul very boliao de talk to each other on facebook using the free internet access corner.
dunno y.

ok la.
we werent exactly drunk, just high...
ha..
but cuz we;re not drinking with our friends, so cannot do very crazy things, or get too drunk lo...
but good that its free drinks...
lol.

but omg.
i reached home around 3am, accidentally bump my head into the table (now got blue black), bathe, sleep till....
630am...
then wake up and vomit....
cannot tahan liao...
ewwww...
the funny thing is...
i vomit quite a lot till the point where i felt the bacardi 151 gas rush up from my stomach into my nose.
its so flamingly hot that i stopped vomiting.
lol.
hana think its funny.

ok.
enough said.

i dun want to try it again, i mean the bacardi 151.
T_T

2009-06-11T14:49:00.002+08:00

ah~~~
when i went toilet...
i saw the spinelli guy again...
yesterday...
egg-cited.

went down again with Hana to buy hazelnut choc blend...
bought a medium size one..
but its freaking small cup...
cute but ex lo...
T_T...

when i finally get to see close up...
he sat behind the counter eating i think..
ha...
good-looking...
but~
i realized he looked like someone i know...
i was like -_-"
hmmm...
nevermind...
he didnt serve us, it was another guy...
ok..
hopefully make more friends..
so that next time can get free coffee...
weee~~~
=D

2009-06-09T09:17:00.007+08:00

ah~~~~
T_T

spinelli guy....
=)

yesterday worked with Jul at T1.
then she went down to change money..
so when she came back..
she was like "CHUN YAN!!!"
i went like "wat wat wat? the spinelli guy is here izzit??"
YEAH!!!
haha..
ok la..
i know like sec sch girls..looking out for their crush.
=P
but its so fun.
and he's really cute...
ha...
we're still working on a nickname~~~ for him...

then i straight away asked to go for break...

wah....
i feel so stupid for not looking closely lo..
cuz i pai seh...
T_T
then after i came out of toilet, he's not there...
damn it...
T_T
so far, i only managed to get far glances of him.. melt-ing

i think jul's observant lo...
she say "at least he doesnt smoke..."
i was like, "how come you know?"
"cuz if he smokes... then we'll see him up here liao ma..."
yeah!!!
smart girl.

so me & jul decided to buy a drink from him after work...
egg-citing...
we deliberately asked to leave at 10.45pm...
and he's not there...
T_T
we act act.. .walk and see see the store next to it... Bengawan Solo...
he still haven appear leh~~

haiz...
next time...
if see him...
die die die...
also mux walk up and buy a drink...
ha..

n OMG...
i finally saw Van~~~~
=D
yeah...
hugs hugs...
thats ur working outfit arh? the red coat...
nice lah~~~
ha...
ya.. caught me eating my BK dinner while walking back to T2...
so unglam...

2009-06-07T09:46:00.002+08:00

人生中有太多事，
预料不到。

现在真的学着活在当下。
看开了。

我其实不是很想面对。

必要的话，我会选择离开吧。
当我觉得，是时候了。

我怕，
因为觉得我开始在迷失方向，失去很重要的人。

我偏心。
我爱她比较多。
我心疼。
她既使再坚强，也只不过。。。。
还是，哭了。

我这辈子，都不可能再更爱你了。

你说，你没有他，还可以活。
但，他没有你，不能过。
我说，我若没有你，我不想活。
真的。

抱着，哭了很久。很久。
大哭。
你可以不必在我面前装坚强。

我不可能，像你这么坚强。

2009-06-07T09:41:00.001+08:00

瓶颈。

是吧？

应该。

America's Best Dance Crew (Season3)

2009-06-05T21:06:00.006+08:00

Beat Freaks Compilation (runner-up)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IYtBokzc0Dg

ha.. i think they're cool...
awesome dance routine...
nice outfit...
damn zai~~

my personal fav is week6, the Katy Perry Hot&Cold mix

Quest Crew Compilation (winner)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rH_c4Qb5oEc

they're freaking zai~~~~

FABRIC-FUN WORLD STAGE DOLLS EXIBITION 2009

2009-06-04T08:16:00.001+08:00

FABRIC-FUN WORLD STAGE DOLLS EXIBITION 2009 COMING SOON

FF01-Minicard. Draw by Buwawa . Color by Soloist
Free (FF01) 4800 pcs of the first Promo Card already out of stock!

Fabric Fun World Stage Dolls Exhibition 2009

“Fabric- fun” is all about original soft sculptures. It is a platform for soft toys designers to showcase their handmade creations, and to show how much fun fabric can be.

布!好玩娃娃展 2009

布!好玩是為了創立一個以原創軟雕和娃娃設計為主的平台, 以及發揮布料的無限可能性.

Venue: The red Dot Museum (Maad) Map

red dot design museum

28 Maxwell Road

red dot Traffic

Singapore 069120

Date: 6th -7th Jun 2009
Time: 11am- 7 pm
Blog: http://fabric-fun.blogspot.com/
Email: nana.roomism@gmail.com
Free Admission
6000pcs Free Mini cards to be given

Travel by Mass Rapid Transit (MRT)

Nearest MRT station is 0.15km away. Take the East West Line (Green) and stop "Tanjong Pagar" (EW15).

Travel by car

The nearest expressway exit is 0.69 km away, take the East Coast Parkway Expressway (ECP) Exit 18

The nearest ERP Gantry is 0.51 km away @ Prince Edward Road - ERP 8, CBD, Restricted Zone B More

The museum is situated along Maxwell Road, enter the car park via Peck Seah Street

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2009-06-03T00:25:00.003+08:00

ha...
kinda sian.. cant work at t1 today...
missed hana..
anyway...

today quite happening at t3 lah..

got 2 ang mohs' conversation...
"fucking place... fucking people.... fuck..."
i think got 10 fucks in 1 sentence...
i wonder~~

then one of them asked me if he can take home a heineken bar mat...
i was like...ERRRR... -_-"
he demo & tell his friend...
he can use it to whack his girlfriend butt...
and say "who's your daddy"
LMAO....

got 1 drunken guy..
i think he wanted to buy a drink.
but lucky got one customer service person came over and say NO. his flight's boarding gate is closing...
he looked totally... unconscious...

then got one ang moh... saw me smsing...
then he went like "hey stop smsing ur boyfriend while you're at work"
i was like whatever...bleh...
ok lah.. i assume that he's joking..
cuz he still smile smile at me...

haiz...
i waiting for ang moh to ask for my email leh...
jul and hana got exchange email liao...
muahaha..

and.. wah...
i so long then come back..
the mrs fields guy still can remember me sia...
pro pro...
haiya... forgot to get free cookies just now.

2009-05-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

happy 21st birthday...wanshin!!
finally get to attend one, after missing out esther's & mercy's
ok..
i gave isadora's a missed today.

went to Raffles City's Ding Tai Feng.
ate till damn full lah..

then go esplanade...
take photo..
sit down...
talk about uni.
talk about sr.

but oh my god.
i cant believe who i saw on bus ride home.
LIM ZHI YUAN.
haha...
so freaking long never see him liao.
he's going to ntu too next sem.
i seriously think he didnt change at all since sec1..
except he got tanned.
really. the way he talk, is exactly like the zhi yuan i know from very (long ago) last time.
wah.
somehow.
its nice to see people staying the same.
=D

2009-05-22T00:27:00.003+08:00

its fucking irritating.
yes i used the f word
hello. sexual harassment.

some stupid old man black guy.
keep calling my name.
then keep talking to me softly.
"chunyan, you have a nice name."
"i saw your tattoo at the back, i think its nice."
fuck you.
which bloody eye you saw got tattoo?
i tell him i dun have.
"i dun like it when you're lying to me."
damn it...

somemore ask to take my photo.
so i pull jul in...
jul saw him zoom in zoom out.
i tot he was taking a pic of my never-will-ever-develop-A-minus breast.

damn it..
my manager still can laugh somemore.
bullshit lo.
jul was so angry. and wanted to box him.

bloody stupid guy.
spolit my day.

haiz.
hope i can see the spinelli guy on sunday.

antm cycle12

2009-05-15T08:49:00.000+08:00

eeee...
why Allison didnt win the title...
chey~~~
i like her.
=(

2009-05-15T00:10:00.003+08:00

ok.
today.. i meant yesterday...
14/05/09
my first time working at T1.
cool.
not as scary as i thought.
maybe cuz working with Juliana also.. plus N&M
weee~~~
we first time get to work together...
=D

its really busy..
like you wont get a chance to sit down...
maybe,, toilet bowl..
haha..
but really fun...
=D

maybe cuz N&M treat me and jul one shot...
also can celebrate our first time
nice~
like floating...
weee...
haha...
good thing didnt get drunk..
i wonder how much alcohol will do?

wah~~~
i enjoying my work~~~
=D

but i keep ending up cutting my fingers,,,
T_T

2009-05-10T18:02:00.002+08:00

想到就好想笑哦！
肚子痛。。。。
昨晚的笑话，现在想想还是很好笑。
打算弄个sweeper看可不可以播。

呵呵。
有时候，真的觉得很感谢认识某些人。

例如：
爱你的人
你爱的人
（不过，以上这两者太普通了）
分享任何事情的人
（天南地北）
让你笑到肚子痛的人
好久不见，还是有话聊的人
一辈子都会陪着你的人

哇！
只有朋友才做得到。
=）

If There're Seasons...

2009-05-09T09:38:00.002+08:00

watched 天冷就回来 If There're Seasons...
on last wednesday...
with soon kiat...

we saw quite a few people...

the songs are nice...
though i dun like some of it...
we were thinking some of the songs like very 硬硬 de used in certain scenes...
ha.. like dun match.. but bo bian.. cuz muz used Mr 梁's songs...

i tot 阿乐's character is so likeable~~
=)
but his laughter sounds quite 假

i dun really like Rose...
i mean i like 哓静 & 阿乐...
okay la... 哓静 die already...
but..
i dun like Rose with 阿乐...
hmmm...

well...
watever..
i'm not the script writer...

i like some settings of scenes...
like there's this hip-hop new york scene...
so pretty~~~
colourful, vibrant, yo-yo-yo....
haha...

there are certain scenes that i almost cried...
i think 3 scenes..
1. 阿乐 turn away refusing to face 哓静's tomb because he's leaving for new york and scared that he cant be determined enough to leave if he look back...
2. 阿乐 singing i not sure what song.... eh... the drinking song.. very sad one..
3. 哓静 shouted her words to 阿乐 asking him to find his own happiness. T_T

SOBZ...
anyway looking forward to Own Time Own Target... yeah.. coming July~~

2009-05-09T00:35:00.003+08:00

heyhey...
teddy should be flying right now at this moment ba...
to sydney~~~
=)

yan jiang saw him at t3...
then tedd came over to t2 find me...
haha.. talked awhile lah...

i finished at 11pm..
then chiong for my last train...
shack...

btw i think teddy in directly say the uniform ugly leh~
cuz he say keep it for halloween...
shit~~

2009-05-07T23:59:00.005+08:00

ohmy...
=)

anyway ya...
the new uniform sucks...
ok..
i never say i work where leh~~
haha...
its looks like some chinese restaurant lol..
i feel like CHUN LI.
my colleague say look like cleaner...
haha...

have to check in through thumb print...
tomolo muz go main office make sia~~~
sian...

first time chiong for the last train after work...
sian...
does thaT Mean that i have to do this everytime~~~

but something made like the last few min of chunyan's 07/05/09
i tot i saw someone~~~~~ hehehehe...
ah.. i'm going crazy...
hahaha...
die die die....
i really wanna see
ah... siaoliao...
=)

singapore say big not big say small not small leh...
maybe... if i continue to take train at that timing... hmmm...
try again...tomolo..
i'll stand in front the next time... stalk behind~~~

2009-04-21T19:12:00.002+08:00

昨天终于考完了！！！！
=)

开心到爆。
呵呵。。
其实也还好啦。
就那种宁静的开心。
=）

我们几个人昨天就考完，还有几个朋友月底才考完。。。

哇。
吃了午餐。
去 J8。
玩 arcade。
看 FAST & FURIOUS4。
好看。
本来不会去看的，。。。
但还是想轻松一下。
呵呵。。。
值得。

2009-04-16T15:23:00.000+08:00

2 papers down.
2 more papers to go.

who ever LA is...
shut your mouth.
non-civilised person.

damn it.
grow up la.

somehow.
maybe.
soon,
there may be a turning point in my life.

i cant stand living in this house.

i wanna run away.

soon.

2009-04-04T13:50:00.002+08:00

today's better's be's a's good's day's.
=/

gonna host XYB all by myself.
for the first time.
XYB goona be hosted by 1 person
for the first time too..
hmm...

please.
dont have anything bad happen.
=/

its hard to figure out what ya thinking.
cuz u always put me on a rollercoaster.
i'm starting to build walls around me.
sorry.
but please say the password before entering.

2009-04-03T18:13:00.002+08:00

haha...
i also find the last session of drama lesson very engaging..
like everyone come together..
ya.. sort of..
=)

i think everyone put up a great performance.

one play down already.
NOW.
left 1 drama essay.
and 4 final exam papers.

2009-04-02T21:58:00.002+08:00

oh my god.
2 essays down today.

left with one play tomolo.
and one essay.
yeah~~~

2009-04-01T20:29:00.001+08:00

and so....
the Korean version of Boys Over Flowers ended liao...
=D
damn nice LAH...
i'll watch it again after exam..

NOW.
gotta rush my 2 essay by tonight...
ah..
tomolo got rehearsal.
=/

Alan Kuo leh~~~ =D

2009-03-30T14:10:00.005+08:00

哦唛嘎！

我忘了说。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

昨天下午回公司录roving。。。
是好的咯。
后来等顺杰代完班，然后才去庆祝马格列特的生日。

呵呵。。。
有幸。。。

=）

托Ken的福，
我和顺杰跟柯有綸拍照。
超兴奋的。。。
呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵。
合不拢嘴。
=）
这是第二次看到他。。。
呵呵。。。
不过，是第一次面对面耶。
可我不敢看他的脸。
呵呵呵。。。
但还是握了两次的手。

啊！！！！
开心死了。

2009-03-30T11:27:00.004+08:00

happy birthday to a lot of people this month.
haha...
=)

yup.
20april.
20april.

before you know.
its 20april liao.
then it would be WOOHOO...
holiday.

i seriously need a break.
considering backpacking.
maybe i'll go alone. ha.
=)

something i always wanted to do.
but~~~ will mama allow ma??
hai.
i need money first.

and congrats to 二哥.
guess what.
he got a vacancy at Oxford University.
DAMN!!!!
haha...
hopefully he get the scholarship..
looking at the results he get, i really pinning high hopes.
=)
then he can do his Masters.
otherwise we have no cash to support him lo...
which he say he wont study if he dun get the funding la.

shunjie ask how i feel having a brother that has such achievements. cuz he told me his side of story and i really cant help laughing.... his mum is one of a kind, man.
i said. happy la.
really leh..
i'm like the average one at home lo.. caught in the middle between my brothers...
but ma treat us all the same... in different ways but the way that we need.
=D
i always wanted the things he have though.
like...
so smart.
go to good schools.
so good in english n chinese.
he can even speak in British accent lo... eew i dun understand a word.
very intellectual lah basically.
damn.
haiya....
life is fair de la...
[trying to convince myself... haha..]

he looked so happy/cheerful. watever =) when we skyped.
obviously, i think he wants it badly too....
please please...
i dun want him to be upset alone while he's overseas.
so...really... let him have the scholarship....
he's kinda scary when he's upset.
okay.
lucky he dun read my blog.
i think.

=D
if only i can have a quarter of his smarty genes in my Mal-functioning brain.

C.M.I.O

2009-03-27T18:54:00.003+08:00

you know what.
today's seminar talk on CANNOT MAKE IT ONE.
was interesting to me.
to me.
cuz hahaha... a few were sleeping..
=D

I didnt know that the title was thought by Alfian ->> C.M.I.O
got it?
Chinese Malay Indian Others.
Cannot make all of these ethnic groups / races into ONE.
and.
theatre in Singapore - cannot make it one.
whatever interpretation up to you man...
haha...

ya...
its thought provoking for me..
like some insight into the English. Chinese. Malay theatre.

if there's National Theatre in Singapore. what language would be used?

@#$%^&*

2009-03-26T14:33:00.005+08:00

I'M @#$%^&* !!!
FREAKINGOUT....
=/

ONE final REPORT on life course.
ONE film review ESSAY on DAS EXPERIMENT, i've watched this 2 times. damn sick, traumatizing movie. i almost vomit after watching it the 1st time which was exactly one year ago. i stole a plate of (6)curry puffs with Sathish, went to Holland V and eat, chit chat till midnight, make myself very tired and not to think out it, then go back to my dorm and sleep, in order to make myself feel better. haha. lucky, 2nd time was better.
ONE PLAY on Lao Jiu?

ARGH.

all next week.

shit.
shit.
shit.

@#$%^&*

i'M SO DEAD.
final exams coming.
this sem is chuiz to the core.

one essay down liao.. yeah

2009-03-25T22:06:00.004+08:00

finally one essay down...
left with one final report, one play, one essay.
before my final exams.
=/

lesson end at 1230pm
straight after 317 tutorial
i went library return my book
then we all went off to SRC.
=)

with Cheng Zhi, Daniel, Dylan, Eric, Isadora.
6 of us...
haha..
my first time playing table tennis...
i think the rest of them got secretly train at home de LOL...
eeyer...
all so pro de...
let's compete in canoeing the next time..
but i think i wanna play badminton and tennis too..
dear clique, lets all play leh...
jio Teddy and Fred.. haha.. then got rackets provided...
=)

the usual Karaoke hang-outers..
Cheng Zhi, Dylan, Isa, Me.
lol.
sang emo songs...
till cry.
a long moment where 3 of us except Isa went emo and cry.
ha..
唱着，唱着。。。
点了首《五月天 - 超人》
then...
T_T
i just felt like letting it out..
A bit ONLY.
a few drops la..
ok no more than 20 drops.
so awkward to cry in front of others.
anyway.
hha.. then after that sing happy songs again..
LOL..
=)

i wanted so badly to hold on to something.

i just.

just one last cry.

‘笑‘娘惹 - the 'Siao' Nyonya

2009-03-22T21:48:00.005+08:00

2009-03-21T23:35:00.005+08:00

its weird that i had been dreaming of him recently.
i swear i dun have time to think of him.
so i dun understand how come i have those dreams.
they seemed so real that everytime i wake up,
i feel a sense of lost, disappointment,
like reality slapped into your face.
thats bad.

i'm definitely distance-ing myself away from him.
though i dun think he'll realise it.
but i guess it doesnt matter anymore,
since i dun think it ever matters to him.
i think i'll feel better, am feeling better.
就別再為他流淚　別再讓他操控你的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔　也不要太狼狽
他不值得你的淚　把那遺憾丟在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追　以後為自己醉
(to van.)

i have to face my reality now.
tourism essay.

thisknee-disney-thisknee-disney??

2009-03-21T10:50:00.004+08:00

i'm so hooked up in America's Next Top Model...
been youtube-ing...
i think cycle 11 is the Best!!
the girls are so pretty...
i like the opening the best...
so cool...
like PRETTY~~
hahaha...

yoho...
=)
yesterday's seminar presentation on Emily on the Emerald Hill was i guess quite good... except for the ending part where the class is all sian sian and starting part where the points are kinda irrelevant...
haiz...
i always wanted to say i find him weird...
but really...
hai...
i guess i think we did our best...
ah..
i think they enjoyed eating the kueh too...
=D

my first time wearing Kebaya...
yah...
i was presenting on Peranakan Culture...
=)
cool stuff...
waiting for Zhane to upload our crazy pictures...
=P

then went NUS with my tutor to borrow books for my tourism essay..
ya..
sian..
cuz gotta hand in next wednesday...
give me many miracles...
i have 3 books and notes to read...
gosh...
i'm writing on disney.
interesting but...
keeping my fingers crossed.

i was just walking behind Wendy, Patricia, YiWen....
when i was approaching their big and pretty library...
hahah...
Wendy went like "CHUNYAN!!"
haha...
=D
then she lent me her card to go in...
haha...
so cute...
;)

on a DISNEY ride...
haiz...
i'm on a Disneyfication or rather Disneyization mode till Wednesday 1130am.
then after... let's go KBOX people!!!
can we not play table tennis...?

need to chill before i chiong for the remaining work...
=/
essays, play, exams.

Cannot Make It One

2009-03-17T19:06:00.005+08:00

NTU Explorations in the Arts Series

Cannot Make It One:

A Dialogue on CMIO

Racial Politics and Singapore Theatre

with Chong Tze Chien, Alfian Saat and Kok Heng Leun

Date: Friday, 27th Mar 2009
Time: 1.00 – 2.30 pm
Venue: The Nanyang Playhouse, NIE

The politics of difference is an area of interest for all global citizens, particularly those who live and engage with urban environments. Being one of the busiest crossroads between East and West, South and North, Singapore provides a fascinating point of intersection between several cultures and multiple identities. Many streams run into the same river, but do they ever become one?

Theatre provides a site for exploring this phenomenon and performing the conflicts and challenges that emerge in plural societies. Whilst theatre continues to have several language based streams such as English Language, Chinese Language and Malay Language theatre, they are all part of the Singapore theatre scene. Multilingual productions are still rare, albeit not as uncommon as they once were. So will the streams ever converge and do they need to?

Theatre practitioners Alfian Saat, Chong Tze Chien and Kok Heng Leun talk about their experience and vision for Singapore theatre. As writers and directors whose involvement in theatre has criss-crossed between one company and another, one stream and another, they consider the bridges and the riverbanks of making theatre and thinking theatre in Singapore. For now and for the future. Will they deal with rising sea-levels as well?

ALL ARE WELCOME!!!

炒饭 ^^

2009-03-14T17:17:00.002+08:00

哦。 MY 天啊！~

=D

我第一次煮炒饭耶！！~

自己吃了一大盘。

爸妈也吃了。。。

呵呵。。。

满足满足满足。。。

为了不让那群大男人主义的家伙们在台湾时客死异乡，

还是多需要练习啊~

还是有很多佳肴我要跟妈妈学。。。

呵呵。。。

这几个月胖了。
明天要减肥了。 T_T

sobz

2009-03-14T11:32:00.004+08:00

18 March - HS317 Tutorial Presentation
20 March - CDP202 Seminar Presentation
25 March - HS317 Essay
02 April - HS209 Final Report
03 April - CDP202 Play Production
13 April - CDP202 Essay
15 April - HS209 Final Exam
16 April - HS302 Final Exam
17 April - HS217 Final Exam
20 April - HS317 Final Exam

shit.
T_T

思考是好的，思考太多就。。。。

2009-03-14T10:45:00.002+08:00

ok.
我最近才发现我常用‘思考’这个字。
呵呵。。。
因为每每我说一次，朋友就会说:“这是你第N次用‘思考’了。”

‘思考’还蛮好用的啊。
可他就会反问我，为什么不用‘想’？

我还真没‘想’过呢。。。

有没有发现？
电视节目很喜欢把男女之间的关系，搬出来讨论。

虽然不同的观点值得拿来探讨，‘思考’。
可是永远也不会有答案的。
答案自己找。
若找不到，那你永远都不会找到。

可是我开始听到很烦了耶。。。
真是的。
说什么，“每个男人都是这样的啊！”之类的话。
有必要吗？

真的没有好男人了吗？

不过，好像还倒是真的耶。
呵呵。。。
可悲。

还是过好自己一个人的生活。
比较好。
何必再去理会另一个人呢？
伤身，伤神。

我在式着，说服我自己。

不是现在

2009-03-12T20:30:00.001+08:00

时间仿佛在慢慢的摧毁我，和身边的人。

可不可以停下来？

不是现在，
如果迟早要经历的话，拜托不是现在。

我还没有能力应付这么大的重担。
没有心理准备。
没有办法承受。

让我装无知，度过这几年。
等我可以了，我会扛起它的。
我会的。

迟早的事，
迟一点在来好吗？

现在不是时候。

我没有准备好。

如果现在就来，没剩多少力量的我，会活不过。

T_T

2009-03-11T23:35:00.004+08:00

shit.
my face is on omy's video.
die.

why they put inside.??????
为何？

even if only feature 2secs..
i also dun wan AH.....

why they never edit...??
sobz...

为何？？ T_T

2009-03-10T20:13:00.004+08:00

哦。
这是在庆功派对时，拍的照片。
可能太累了。
拍得不好看。
顺便把顺杰的脸给遮了。。。
呵呵。。。
paiseh
严格来说是唯一的一张。
因为我还没看到另一张，所有crew和罗志祥一起拍的。
呵呵。。。
唯一见证我参与第一届新加坡E乐大赏的回忆.
竟是把我拍的这么不好看.
咳呀.

Large Glass of Water

2009-03-09T17:24:00.003+08:00

2009-03-09T16:55:00.003+08:00

found some clips on youtube which features E乐大赏 =)
can go omy.sg too

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P1i06tg_Afk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KLw7Th_gAgg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C95wlxZTJpY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3RsM9jagFss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n12zTNiZQPc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WdtOVIwBzUM

还是被你的一句话，无心的话。
给伤了。

看，吧。

2009-03-08T13:09:00.003+08:00

有些东西，还是有距离，比较好。

不仅是“远看很美，近看像鬼。”
就。。。
你知道吗？
永远保持一种距离感，
到死你都觉得它是完美的。
差不多是这意思。

就。。
有些失落感。
觉得不真实。
看到了不曾觉得这辈子会有机会接触的。
不懂咧。。
就还好，我正挺着。
还在感觉那落差。
为何？

各位，粉丝们啊。
为何你们会追偶像？
他们也只是人，而已。

恭喜各位，圆满落幕。

2009-03-08T01:51:00.006+08:00

很累。。。
筋疲力尽。。
到了某种程度。。。
到我现在睡不着。。。
虽然，我敢说，这经验，这辈子，我会记得。
相信我。
感激不尽，让我有这经验。

呵呵。。。
可能肚子辣辣的吧。。
刚吃了庆功宵夜。。。

今天的E乐大赏算很成功。。。
我觉得啦。。。
表演都很好啊。。。
顺顺的过。。。
搞到我差点昏倒。。。
有种不真实的感觉。
还好，挺得住。
一切结束时，‘哇靠’
拥抱吧各位。。。
来，来，来。
真的今天不知为何一直想讨抱抱。

很想说的：
Erving Goffman's Dramaturgy 懂吗？
Front stage n Back stage 总该知道吧？

为何？
下回分解。

有种感觉，
在看彩虹和星星时，
希望你也看得到。

E乐大赏

2009-03-06T23:26:00.003+08:00

http://sgeawards.omy.sg/

哟。。。
就是明天了，各位。。。。

=）

今天赶完assignment
便从学校赶到Marina Floating那。。
去彩排的现场。。。
但什么都没做到咧。。。
呵呵。。。
就听一些歌手彩排。。。
蛮好听的。。。
然后，吃东西，然后，作伯（zuo bo）
呵呵。。。
然后，meet老大，然后，吃东西
呵呵。。。

我要看OLIVIA ONG!!!

就在明天。。
明天啊。。

晚安咯！
=）

random thoughts

2009-03-06T23:20:00.003+08:00

i had this thought in the morning while on the MRT...
i decided that i really have to write it down...

like...

i want to believe that there is no next life (for me)
i always feel that living / being alive is a suffering...
dunno leh...
its like everyone is dying since they are born...
day by day closer to death...
jus that you dunno when the date (dead) line is...
haha...
after reading mitch albom's tuesdays with morrie since sec3/4??
ya...
i sort of ask myself everyday...
whether today is THE DAY?
if it is THE DAY? will you regret?
no.
super sadistic right, i know la...
please everybody...
read liao then forget it can...
thanks...

i mean...
some will try to do good deeds so that they can have a good life in their next life...
how you know? that you will be leading a good life in the next life?
its not like you'll be having memories of this life while you live your next life...
why...
have i lived a life before mine??
i wonder...
if there is next life, can i die die die bring along my memories with me..
so that i can be a better person in my presumably existing next life..

where then? does those great people go to?
where is Durkhiem? Marx? Weber? Shakespeare? Einstein?
are they born into another life?

think about it?
would you like to be a female or a male, if you can choose?
a woman's life course is said to be centered around her significant others.
a man's life course is oriented around work.
i rather be a woman then.
if ever i'm married, family will definitely be my priority...work/interest comes second
if lah..
which is not quite possible i think...
[i might consider being a mistress, actually i dont like the idea initially, but im starting to consider it.... hmmmm =D find a sugar daddy then...]
i do feel that people around me... are my guiding lights for directions...
i want to treasure people who are important to me...
least i would feel more like a human being, with emotions, with identities i can identify with other than work.
since our identities are given by others, or through the lens of others.

what is a human being then?
what is your meaning of life?
what is your purpose?

what if?
what if you never find your purpose?
what if?
what if you never find the meaning for living?
what if?

how does it feels like living a life of an ethnic minority?
eg. Indians... in Singapore...
we(Chinese) feels comfortable living here...
because we are the majority...
you know...

give me just one day...
in the life of another...

i should start considering doing FYP on these....
my thesis is....

M - "Don't Trust Men"

2009-03-04T21:19:00.002+08:00

haha..
i found this song...
Shinhwa's MinWoo aka M....
i think the lyrics is...
=D
funny...
but like quite true...
ok...
i wont trust men.

M - "Don't Trust Men"

Rap)
Yeah, we got another one right here
Brave Brovas Big M. B.O.M.B.
We gon' do this for the Playuh'z y'all
This one is for Playuh'z
Just wanna make it clear so grab a hottie
Let's party take shots and bounce to this here
Brave Brovas Tone and Big M nah
We ain't goin' no where
So all my sexy ladies where you at?

I don't know how, but I felt affection for you
Somehow you became family
But as I kept on staring at you, you started to annoy me
Because the conscience of my heart kept pricking me

So I let you go
Because I didn't think I loved you that much
I sent you away, I..

If you try leave, I'll hold on to you
But if you come back, I'll feel burdened
This is how men are, I'm a bad man
Don't trust such a cowardly man

You're too good to give to someone else
But you're someone I don't want to keep
I don't want to marry you, but I do want to date you
This is how men are, I'm a bad man
Don't trust such a cowardly man

I really love you, but I always make you sad
I really am a bad man
Don't forgive me

So I let you go
Because I didn't think I loved you that much
I sent you away, I..

If you try leave, I'll hold on to you
But if you come back, I'll feel burdened
This is how men are, I'm a bad man
Don't trust such a cowardly man

You're too good to give to someone else
But you're someone I don't want to keep
I don't want to marry you, but I do want to date you
This is how men are, I'm a bad man
Don't trust such a cowardly man

I don't know me, but I can't stop
I don't know me, but I can't stop
I don't know me, but I can't stop
I don't know me, but you know

Rap)
Cause I'm a bad boy (Yes!)
I'm such a selfish person
If the shorty with the nice body passes by, I automatically
Stare.. that's just me. I'm honest. No fantasy from D.
You know my style right? Even if you say you don't like me, you smile
Ah ha! This is me
Even if you leave me like this, I won't be disappointed (No!)
Our affections were rooted more deeply than our love
Say bye or be mine, you're my one and only Dambi
I'm your 'Badboy' forever and always

Don't come any closer, I'll just feel more apologetic
Leave me alone now, don't love a guy like me

If you try leave, I'll hold on to you
But if you come back, I'll feel burdened
This is how men are, I'm a bad man
Don't trust such a cowardly man

You're too good to give to someone else
But you're someone I don't want to keep
I don't want to marry you, but I do want to date you
This is how men are, I'm a bad man
Don't trust such a cowardly man

yoga-ed on top of ADM

2009-03-04T20:08:00.007+08:00

nice???
=)
its taken at the top of ADM...
i always wanted to go there...
cuz i always see ppl going up there...
haha...
finally..
went there yesterday to help my course mate with her FYP...

i just need to sit there and go some YOGA thingy...
then she film it...
phew...
dont need to look into the camera..
haha...
btw it was raining when this was taken.

but nice~~~
to be at the green grassy patch...

>_<

2009-03-04T18:04:00.004+08:00

ok.
its kinda big thing going around Spore.
well.
i'm talking bout the NTU incident.

even when Dylan went the public clinic,
and was registering at the counter,
he flashed his NTU matric card,
the receptionist was like "Oh, were you there?"
get it???

ya...

ok...
i shouldnt blog...
what we said in school la...
you know the jokes we make..
very sensitive...
later i kena expelled.

2009-03-04T17:16:00.001+08:00

i think got miracle happened.
haha...
=)
weeee~~~
>_<

2009-03-03T18:39:00.003+08:00

hai...
why???
i cannot vote???
hai...

anyway...
first time board at Pioneer MRT...
wah nobody de...
shiok... no one to snatch seats...
bet ya never see before Boon Lay MRT from 5pm onwards~~~
squeezy~~~ dao...

ok.
i just saw my future school building.
wah the construction quite fast leh...
think might be able to use it when i year3.
i thought i saw wrongly...
i think the building is black...
hmmm...
what a contrast...
black modern building located behind Chinese Heritage Centre.

i cant wait to go E-乐大赏！！！

i need a miracle.
good luck to me.
tomolo got statistics quiz.
shit.

i'm in love.

2009-03-02T11:39:00.004+08:00

=)

with my clique.

i swear.

i have this heart-pumping feeling when i think of them.

like happiness bubbles flowing around...

haha...

really..

sounds so cheeky.

fine. missed your shoulders too. (puke >O<)

it feels safe having all of you.

dont google this. tr33 du3t

2009-03-02T11:18:00.005+08:00

i went to watch TREE DUET by spell#7 last night.

at NUS UCC.

it was.. fascinatingly different from all the other theatre plays that i've watched.

it was engaging in the sense that its unpredictable.

it interact with the audience.

i like the staging, setting.

though i didnt understand some parts of the play.

surprisingly, i could still keep up with the show, despite feeling very tired.

it's just unpredictable.

=)

oh i saw cindy too.. in the toilet...
haha...
so that guy who acted was her prof...
okok...
=)

sorry.. i missed YanZhi bday party...
=P

爱情是什么？

2009-03-01T14:42:00.002+08:00

爱情是什么？

你的右手提不起手提包，左手会帮忙提。

意思就是 “因为我在你的身边，所以我愿意为你分担辛苦，也因为你的存在，所以我的辛苦，也会有你为我分担。”

我没这么厉害，是小说里头的。 =）
现在读的是藤井树的《B栋11楼》

Happy BDay Teddy.

2009-03-01T13:43:00.008+08:00

its really nice to have everyone gathered...
its really nice to have small chats. and as usual joking around with each other...
=)
i cant stop laughing the whole night.
maybe thats why im shagged.

its nostalgic.

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TEDDY.
I MEAN TOMOLO.
why did they spell "Taddeus"???

seriously.
how did i got to know teddy?
damn it...
i dont remember...
but somehow i only know the last few dec31st were spent in his house.
ha...
shit...
how i know teddy ah?

i do miss sleeping over at his house.
can we do it again soon?
rent DVD and watch... then
all of us sleeping in his room.
and wake up in the morning and go eat prata????
>_<

i wanna enjoy all the 21st birthday gathering this year.
think it'll take more than my 10fingers can count.

i always enjoy the past midnight HTHT.
LOL.
its...
i dunnoe..
nice~~
haha...
though i was quite shagged.
=P

we're all 21 this year.
time flies.
sooon we are gathered together at wedding ceremony.
i cant wait.
=D
just kidding.

i dont feel like im 20 even.
hai.
we cant stay in secondary school days cant we.

i think the rest of you had the best memories when you were in 1E5, 2E5.
i swear my best memories in sec was when i was in 3E2, 4E2.
=)

when i first met you guys, i was only 15.
most of you met when you were 13.
i had 6 years of good memories with all of you.
i bet its has been a better 8 years for most of you.
i hope we can have more memories together.
just like this.
sit down and drink "awful" coffee...
=D

its nice to have friends that i want to keep for the rest of my life.

2009-02-27T20:00:00.002+08:00

快乐如何体会？
你的快乐，是什么？

快乐一直在悲伤的身边。
我不是很明白这句话。

不过，
我喜欢小说里：“有缘分牵手，就别轻易放手。”
这句话是送给在恋爱的，还有快要恋爱的你们。
＝）

nice pic~

2009-02-27T12:30:00.003+08:00

2009-02-27T00:13:00.002+08:00

finally.
finished my 5 hours transcript.
you have no idea how i survived through doing it.
shit.
i handed in late.
but i did my best.
please. dont penalize too much.

T_T

you have no idea how relieved i am now.
it was like fighting a war, in the last hour.
i'm damn shag.

T_T

I owe dylan many many.
think muz return him, if i have next life.
if.
i doubt i'll have, though.

T_T

has my recess week finally came?
but its going to be over soon.
shit.

rainism

2009-02-24T17:35:00.004+08:00

oh my god.

i managed to revive my diminishing love for RAIN.
=)

[LIVE HQ ♥ 102608] Bi Rain 비-Rainism
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f12AAzLvTAY

The 7th Korea Film Award-Rainism
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuIqSEEmf74

ok...
cuz initially i didnt like this album months ago.
now.
i love it.
he's so hot.

ok.
time to do my transcript.

dying peranakan culture

2009-02-24T16:17:00.007+08:00

its the peranakan fever~~~

ok.
seriously, i would say its a dying culture.
also.
a culture that has evolved to nothing-ness.
gradually. i mean.

face the fact.
you need to have a museum to "preserve" the culture.
btw, erm... there are certain items displayed in the museum which i dont understand what's the use.
for example, dick lee's medal, and his score sheet.
has the items been part of a practice of peranakan culture? eh.

you see.
its not an identity that is constantly reinforced among people.
nor a ethnic group(race) like Chinese, Indian, Malay.
in the case of Singapore, for instance.

its not in your IC.
it may be in your blood.
do you know it?

ok.
strictly speaking.
it was (mixed) inter-racial marriages that led to a new group of people called peranakan. >>> mix of Chinese, Malay, Indian
so... why werent the people born in inter-racial marriage nowadays called peranakan?

in layman's term.
they stopped the membership since hundreds of years back.

you know what.
i'm kinda shocked by this.
peranakan.org.sg
Interested in becoming a Peranakan Association member?
Please click here to fill in the membership form and post it back to us with a cheque of SGD103.00 payable to "The Peranakan Association".
come on,
sign up,
it'll make you a peranakan....
worse.
they added this line at the end.
"You don't need to be a Peranakan to join."

ok.
it is not a product, though.
i just dont like the fact that people are trying to commodify the culture, saying that they're reviving the culture, but hey, is anybody practising it?
you dont revive a dying culture by watching The Little Nyonya. [i like the show.]
nor does it make you 'feel' like a peranakan by eating the kueh you bought at Bengawan Solo.

ok.
get back to work on Emily of the Emerald Hill.
[p.s. i interpret the intention of the writer that she would agree that its a dying culture.]

2009-02-23T21:48:00.003+08:00

如果时间能治疗伤口。。。

顺杰说：“男人都是溅的。”
呵呵。。。
我想他说得没错。
嘿，反正这句话，又不是我说的，不必负责。

很好笑。
因为竟然会为了《因为男人犯溅才做的事》而失眠了两晚。
蠢。

女人做越多蠢事，就表示她们越在乎你。
大便。

幸好，我是铁做的。
现在练成了金刚身。
看个爱情戏剧，身边一群陌生女孩们感动到~哭得不像话。
我是很镇定的，看完了整部电影。
呵呵。。。
镇定吗？
应该是没感觉吧。
虽然电影确实真的很好看。

可能，因为朋友‘放生’我。
虽然是“一起”看电影。但...
5人跑去看《K-20》，就任我一人看《游龙戏凤》。
呵呵。。
第一次，一个人看电影。
感觉不错。

幸好，我的电影比他们的好看。
呵呵。。。
=）

用力抱着

2009-02-22T09:25:00.001+08:00

顺杰强力推荐的歌。。。
真的好听~~~
歌词很美~~~

梁静茹 - 用力抱着

寂寞时你像个贝壳
闭上眼你倔强地摀住双耳
背对背地坐着我们用沉默在拉扯
看谁的泪先输掉拔河

爱我时你不够严格
总忘了能够牵手多麽难得
我不怕生命有挫折不怕回忆会有皱摺
唯有你说要放弃我不愿附和

你心里有多少忐忑
交给我去用力抱着
双手还有热或许能唤起你的不舍
有一天我们伤的心会癒合
心里的忐忑
抱着慢慢就会好的
感动都有了还有什麽不认可
不准我们把爱给走成了坎坷

多少恋人不费唇舌
在一起却说服彼此不适合
我懂得生命有沼泽懂得爱会失去光泽
只是在你怀里是快乐的抉择

你心里有多少忐忑
交给我去用力抱着
双手还有热或许能唤起你的不舍
有一天我们伤的心会癒合
心里的忐忑
抱着慢慢就会好的
感动都有了还有什麽不认可
不准我们把爱给走成了坎坷

我心里也有的忐忑
曾经你也勇敢抱着
思念还有歌唱着我无法对你割舍
相信我们伤的心会癒合
心里的忐忑
时间跟我说会好的
决心放好了这一次非你不可
若这不是爱那有过的是什麽

最幸福的事

2009-02-21T01:30:00.002+08:00

梁文音 - 最幸福的事

你撐著雨傘借我那次
已經足夠我記得一輩子
我懂後來你不是不堅持
愛情本來就沒萬無一失

淚水離開了你的手指
那不如讓它流在這信紙
我想女孩子最貼心的是
讓愛的人選結束的方式

我最幸福的事當過你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩飾讓我們像當時擁抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蠟燭時你總為我許願的手勢
為摯愛的人在左邊心口保留位置是最幸福的事

可惜愛不是童話故事
不能夠永遠依賴著王子
再难过其实只剩兩個字
我怎麼忍心為難你解釋

我最幸福的事當過你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩飾讓我們像當時擁抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蠟燭時你總為我許願的手勢
為摯愛的人在左邊心口保留位置是最幸福的事

那一陣子有你美的不像現實
多高興每一幕都微笑著靜止

我最幸福的事牽著你的日子
一段愛從開始直至分開我們都對彼此誠實
最幸福的事對那片海用力大喊永遠的樣子
想得起的事那天和你傻笑著認識是最幸福的事

Photography

2009-02-20T21:04:00.002+08:00

Photography is part of the theatre that modern people enact to produce their desired togetherness, wholeness and intimacy.

I bet most people never thought of this:
Most performances in front of camera are static.
Posing, for instance, is a motionless act.
A desire for timelessness fuels photography, immobility, yields immortality.

don't

2009-02-20T20:58:00.003+08:00

don't think they are happy leading simple lives.
don't think they are contented with it.
don't put your perspective on them.
don't you realize they've never seen the world outside.
don't you think you're kinda ego-centric.
don't you even try to understand from their point of view.
don't bother, i guess.

don't trust what you see.

那个还在等待的“他”

2009-02-20T19:24:00.004+08:00

“在世界上最遥远的距离不是生和死，而是站在你面前却不能说: 我爱你.”

这种感觉，我不会知道。

因为故事的主角不是我。

他。。。。应该不是又在暗示我吧？

大便。 shit的意思。

心里怪怪的。

好像又要历史重演。

好，好笑。

笑，我身边总有这种“他”出现。

笑，我好像遇不到对的“他”。

笑，偏偏想对我好的“他”，不是我想要的那个“他”。

笑。

可笑。

傻笑。

2009-02-19T21:08:00.001+08:00

my stress level is boiling up....
like...
hot water...
ah!!!

essay
seminar
presentation
mid term quiz

i'm so T_T

i wonder why this semester de time flies by...
so fast..
i didnt feel like i did anything productive..
shit...
i mean shitting is a productive activity too...
your body needs to get rid of it every day...
die..
what am i saying...
i dunno...
hah.

i need a hug...

bday + countdown at teddy's house...

2009-01-01T18:10:00.009+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!!!

2008-12-31T11:29:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHUNYAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

=)

getting old liao...
just entered the age group of the 20s...
damn it...

=)

2008-12-31T11:15:00.002+08:00

ok...
i'm looking forward to meeting Damai gang at Teddy's house tonight...
=)
damn happy now...

and oh...
lim zuo han, you say de hor..
we'll meet soon!!!!

Mr. A

2008-12-31T11:03:00.003+08:00

Mr. A boarded the plane at 6am this morning...
so he is now flying to Tokyo-Narita, then flying to Minneapolis...
then travel to Georgia...
then study at Georgia Tech for the next 4 months...
then travel around US for 1 month...

hmmm...
total 5 months leh...
hmmm...
should be very fast come back one hor....
hmmm...
5 months only mah...
hmmm...
('_')

(*_*)

(T_T)

no worries...
you still owe me a kiss...
so i'll be waiting...
=)

Desaru

2008-12-24T19:16:00.003+08:00

okyy...
time to update..

went to DESARU with radio1003 last weekend (20, 21 dec)
ok...
the weather was good considering that everything went smoothly as planned...
the sun was berry hottie hottie....
like you know... ouch~~
kinda weather...
but yeah...
sun tanning lo...
=)
i saw a lot of babies...
so cute...
i also want one...

after i came back from DESARU...
MR. A go Malacca with his family...
(*_*)
for 3 days...
sobz...

but
YUPPY!!!!
he's coming back tonight!!!
waiting~~~
counting down...

went to Chinatown KBOX with Esther and Juliana yesterday....
so cool...
never change. still the same.
=)
sing until very tired, dunno what to sing...
i like the part where we all singing to LEE HOM's songs together...

hopefully will get to meet Siang soon...
and also Puty, Leen, Van, Han, Jo, Fred, Tedd, Pui,.......
=P

Sentosa Zouk-Out 2008

2008-12-14T13:38:00.001+08:00

The Office Party

2008-12-09T08:53:00.007+08:00

i swear its so entertainingly funny, and....
oh ya..
you must be 16 years old and above...
=)

went to watch this SRT play yesterday with my drama friends at DBS ARTS Centre...
damn cool lo..
Michael should have warned us...
its kinda awkward to have seen your teacher's bum...
i'm serious...
hahahaha....
i like his t-shirts anyway...
haha...

Cynthia Lee MacQuarrie is damn hot...
whooo...

ok...
there's bum showing scenes, kiss scenes, 'sex' scenes...
ok...
spoiler...
haha...

Synopsis

At the advertising company Chapman and Howard, the staff have taken great pains to prepare for their traditional Christmas bash, and to ensure that they avoid any scandals similar to last years which resulted in a visit from the police and the Managing Directors divorce! But when the drinks flow and the good times roll, the party lurches from one disaster to another.

A great romantic comedy targeting the office crowd, companies, who would like to do something different and fun for their annual D&D.

Ticketing Information

DATES: From 27th November 2008, 8pm Mondays to Saturdays plus 4pm Matinee on Fridays and Saturdays
PRICES: From $40 to $58 - Group discounts available
VENUE: DBS Arts Centre Home of SRT
TICKETING: SISTIC at 6348 5555 or www.sistic.com.sg
WEBSITE: www.srt.com.sg

see review here:
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/reviews/view/393212/1/.html

see trailer here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVkLBx0IoS4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMu8YJhpTg4&feature=channel

2008-11-29T10:22:00.002+08:00

考试终于在星期二考完了
等这一天，等了好久哦
读书读得头昏脑胀

好久没有和朋友联络了
得趁假期好好的聚一聚

这学期
真的真的很努力了

12月，
要打工
不过
也要解放自己
呃。。。
去旅行
到哪里都可以

去做一些没做过的事

美国
好像真的很远。。。
6个月
还蛮久的。。。

2008-11-21T08:08:00.003+08:00

after battling for the past few days...
mon-thurs. 3 papers.
finally down with only 2 more papers left...
phew...
i'm mentally and physically drained...
i think i need to escape to an island and stay there for 1 month..
before the school re-opens..
lol...

had fever on wednesday and thursday..
damn jia-lat...
cannot concerntrate...
i was like head pain, toe pain(i injured my tendon), fever, sore throat...everything came at one go...
ssians...
woke up at 2am to study then go exam at 1pm...
lucky..during exam i'm okay...
still can do the paper...
i damn scared i'll faint...
haha..
i really start to think i'm superwoman...
hmmm....

2008-10-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

oh my gosh...
you wont believe this...

i managed to jog with olivia ong last saturday...
ok...
i jog behind her la...
not every close behind but ya...
i didnt stalk her ok...
i just happened to be jogging there with Mr A.
huh...
dont tell you where..
later everyone go find her...
haha...
but i was damn excited to see her...
=)
weee...
heard that olivia will be singing for Little Nonya...
look forward to hear it...

2008-10-15T13:43:00.001+08:00

I'm glad that i have you. =)

its really been a very very bad week for me...
but thank you for being there for me...
i really appreciate it...